I honestly never wanna feel used or feel like I’m someone’s space filler, their second choice/back up or someone just taking advantage of me in general ever again. Like I can’t help but think anyone whose ever being interested / or will ever be is always aiming for just that. I’m tired
(via sadnegro)
there’s no upgrading after me and i’m not talking about looks.. what i do and what i give can’t be bought or taught.
(via frenchinhalechanelxoxo)
I’m at a point in my life where I just don’t care anymore so if you stress me out I’m just not gonna deal with you anymore.
(via ari-yella)
Things I’ve learned since becoming ill…
• It’s nobody’s fault. It is genetic. It just happened.
• Do not be too proud or stubborn to ask for help. You need it.
• Brush your teeth and wash your face (even just with a baby wipe) everyday if you’re able to do so. It makes you feel more human.
• Shower or bathe whenever you are able to. Good personal hygiene is good for your mental health.
• Some people will leave. You don’t need those people. Others will stay and they are wonderful human beings.
• You are not a burden. You are not useless. Do not be guilty. Please. Guilt will eat your insides.
• You have not lost who you are. You just now have to make adjustments to accommodate this new thing.
• Accept the fact that you have an illness. Being in denial will only make your mental and physical health worse.
• Clean pyjamas are a divine gift. As are clean bedding and blankets.
• Self care is entirely subjective. If you want to do yoga then do it, if you wanna sit and eat takeout in front of the TV in a squirtle onesie then that’s fine too. Whatever makes you feel good, or at least better.
• If you are tired then rest. Do not burn yourself out. It doesn’t matter what time of day it is, if you need a nap then you have one.
• Talk. Write. Sing. Paint. Draw. Dance. Do something to express your feelings. Don’t keep them inside. You’ll explode.
• Don’t worry if you can’t adjust right away. It takes time. A lot of time.
• Do not feel ashamed or embarrassed. Unfortunately illness often has embarrassing symptoms or such. It isn’t your fault. People who allow you to feel embarrassed about such things are terrible people.
• Keep your sense of humour. Some days it’s the only thing that gets you through.
• There will be good days. Grab them with both hands and enjoy them. Savour them. Spend them doing things you love, things that you can’t do on bad days.
• Prepare yourself to the best of your ability. Like…always have a hospital weekend bag packed for emergencies, keep a bed day drawer or bag near to where you sleep, have food or snacks close by, always have a water bottle…
• Take your meds. Please. If you have a serious illness for the love of god don’t listen to the “big pharma” conspiracy theorists. You need your meds. They keep you alive. They enable you to function.
• Research your illness. Keep yourself informed. But don’t dwell on what might happen. Please don’t scare yourself.
• It’s okay not to feel positive all the time. It’s okay to feel down. It’s perfectly natural. But try to be as positive as you can. For your own sake.• Your own health comes first. It’s not selfishness it’s survival.
• Be kind to yourself.
• The bad days can be horrific but the good ones are beautiful, and so worth holding on for.
• Don’t give up on love. Just don’t.
• You are a badass warrior.
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